So 2009 is on its way out. I am now an engaged mother of 4. I turned 30 the day after Christmas and most days I feel every minute of it. I am in a weird spot in my life as usual (they always seem to find me). I am the first of my siblings to be 30, was the first to have a child, was the first to get married, was the first to get divorced. It hasn't always been that way. I had an older brother. I miss him every day. And losing him has shaped my life in so many ways that will never be the same. It has been 2 years now and it still feels like it was yesterday. My life has changed so much in the last two years and I am trying to still find my balance. It will happen sometime. I am just not sure when.
The biggest news of 2009 came in the form of a cute little pink bundle on September 7 via c-section. Katelynn. She is so much of a joy. The perfect finale to our family. She is growing way too fast. Austin, Alana, and Gavin are all good siblings. They like to play with her, talk to her, and even change diapers!!
Austin is such a sweet little boy. I can barely believe that he is going to be 11 in March. How in the world did he get so old?? He told me that this was his BEST Christmas ever! (and in my mind, I was wondering which present that he got that made him feel that way) and much to my surprise when I asked him why, he replied "Because, we have Katie this year and it is her first Christmas, and we have gotten to see all of our family and friends that we don't normally get to see!" Boy was my heart proud when I heard him say that. Somedays he is too old for his own good. He sees so much and tries to do for everyone. He absolutely loves his nerf guns and hunting with his dad. He got his first deer this year! The first day of the season, first time he actually went to try to shoot one he got one. It was a big doe. This is helping his self esteem a lot I think. I personally wouldn't ever shoot something but they like to do it together and he really likes it so I am behind him on it.
Alana is getting to be such a young girl. She has lost her baby cheeks and baby fat. She turned 6 in June and it seems like she is 16....What can I say about my girl? She is Alana. She loves anything to do with make up, dresses, hair do's, anything girly pretty much. But she also likes to go hunting with her dad. Well for Halloween this year she was an Asian princess complete with make up and hair and was wearing a camoflage coat! She is very tender hearted like her big brother but man is she stubborn. She has definete ideas about what she wants to do and HOW she wants to do it and if you try to change that you will be hearing about it. Loudly. She is the sweetest thing. But she can also make things very difficult by being as stubborn as she is.
Gavin is growing as well. He is skinny as a rail and 100% energy and all boy. He just turned 6 in October. He wants to be in the middle of anything and everything that is going on. He is doing well in Kindergarden this year. He loves going to school and has calmed down immensely since he first came to live with me. He has the happiest personality with more than a touch of mischief. He loves his baby sister and tries to help with her too. He is definetely a daddy's boy. He wants to be in everything that Jeremy does. We have had our rough spots and still do but I do truly believe that he loves me and he wants to be a good boy. I think that he still is learning to control all of his impulses and he gets better most every day.
Katelynn....sigh....my last baby. She is so perfect in every way. I can honestly say that I adore every little teeny tiny thing about her. She doesn't cry unless she wants to eat, wants to sleep, doesn't want to sleep, or has a dirty diaper. She is such a joy. It makes me wonder if it is my outlook and place in life or if she really is just the best baby in the world. With Austin and Alana, I was much younger and seemed to have a rougher time with certain parts. I looked forward to having a night away from them every now and again. With Katelynn, Jeremy has to pretty well MAKE me get a night away. I don't like to leave her and it physically hurts me to hear her cry. She went for her shots on Wednesday and she screamed for about 15 minutes and then cried for another 20. It ruined my whole day.
Jeremy and I are getting married! He proposed on my birthday. It was really a big surprise. He laid out roses on the floor from our bedroom all the way to the garage where he was waiting holding a single rose with a ring inside. Then he made me back up so he could get down on one knee and ask me. Of course I said yes. I love him so much and he is such a good partner and friend. I can tell him just about anything. He is such a good man. He does anything and everything that he can to help me and show me how much he loves me as well. We are one heck of a team. Well I think that is all of my ramblings for this one. :o)
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